Every Night

Gambo, South Windham ME

Description

12:28 am Tension rises in my throat A pit reserved for my stomach Crawls my esophagus 12:29 I must stay silent I can afford to not feel it for a little bit longer Panic settles in my bones 12:30 am It comes every night Visiting me at the same time Punctual suffering 12:31 Try to quiet the screams Drum your head with your hands Just hard enough to muffle Not loud enough to wake 12:36 Put all your weight on the pedal I cant afford to allow myself silence Cannot afford to go unheard 12:46 Why does loneliness feel so urgent fumbling with gravity Pull yourself to the tracks 12:52 Water rushes beneath the ties There is no one to hear There is no one to wake Wait To scream To jump For release For relief Wait For nothing Because nothing will come 12:28am … CP