missing who you used to be

Eugene OR

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"The worst part about narcissists is having to mourn someone who isn’t real. A person from the past that they presented themselves to be. The person you liked and Miss is basically like missing a dead man. That person is no longer there even if you try to talk to them. And when they gaslight you and discard you by throwing you away with no chance of working things out and they block you, there’s a void. An emptiness that’s really painful and overwhelming. I miss who I thought you were. It’s pathetic I’m missing something that was fake. It makes me sick how I’d tell you something was hurting me and you’d mock me for it and didn’t give a single fuck. I felt like dying. Over and over. You’d call me “negative” and say what I was doing while sticking up for myself and holding you accountable was “old”. Yet if I’d do to you what’d you’d do to me that would be a problem. hypocrite. we would have fights and you’d never apologize. Stretching out the fights and causing pain when it would’ve only taken 5 minutes to apologize and make things right. But you could never do that. Ever.." these are not my words, but the same thing goes for narcissism as for drug addiction. This is not for you, this is for me. Words you would never hear or listen to. DON'T REPLY.