To Mindy

San Antonio TX

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This is for Mindy M. I doubt she will see this, also, I'm posting in a city she isn't from. I just needed to get off my chest that I miss her & still love her with all my heart. I wish things went differently but you did start treating me wrong. When all I wanted is your love & affection. I tried my hardest all the time for you. To the point anyone would think I was foolish but I believed in us. I'm sure you're over me and moved on. Sucks cause as hard as it was for me to make that move to be done and try and move on... here I am, missing you sooo much. Your Smile, Your Eyes, Your Voice, Your Laugh.. the way you use to look at me like I truly mattered. You were also my best friend who I could share anything & everything with. Who would listen to me, when I had no one who cared to listen. I needed you more than ever after the passing of my mother but you chose to stay distant & always found a "reason" you couldn't talk to me longer or see me. I tried to have patience... I tried for 7 years but all you showed me is less attention, less love & less your heart that you use to show so much. Not only did I lose my mother, the closest person I had in my life who was rock & strength. I lost you too, my heart, the love of my life. Sometimes I feel I don't want to go on.. that there is no point when I hope to wake up the next day and see my mom still here but she isnt... to wake up and hear from you and have a reason to stay strong and hope...but now I don't even have you. I wake up more empty every day..more alone. It wears you down and breaks your heart more each day to want to hug and tell someone you love then, who are everything to you..and you can't. I love you Mindy M., even though you hurt me and did me wrong.. I still love you.