met you in the dumpster, scar on your thumb

Portland OR

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I think I might have said some unkind things lately. I haven't had a lot of compassion. There's a lot of baggage on my end that I'm trying to work through, and I know you've got your own. How can something at once be so good, and so terrifying? I dreamed of meeting someone just like you before we ever met, and now that you're in my life I'm doing exactly what I knew I would, even back then. I'm sabotaging. You should know you have never done anything to hurt me. Just wish I could shake off this coldness in my heart. You deserve the world - you deserve all the love & care you give to others, and more - and I want to give it to you. So please don't give up on me yet.