We were

North Highlands CA

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The thing that began the issues. That made you begin your search. It wasn't true. The thing that began the mistrust, which begat mistrust. It wasn't what happened. We didn't follow the way after that. Everything broke down piece by piece. I dont know what made you so convinced of that. It would be really out of character for me. I wish I could go back and pay more attention, but I can't do that. We were on the right path for a while. We had rebuilt the trust, but then we lost it again. It is very sad. You must know me well enough yo at least question the truth of that thing. The thing you're so convinced of. The thing that made you stray, and talk to others. I see why now, after the back and forth issues that began after that initial issue you removed my benefit of the doubt. There were some things I was not truthful about. I have come clean about those, and did my best to explain, but I accept that an apology for those mistrust is not enough. I know you're done, and that it is over... but we still have to communicate, and I worry that because there is this huge elephant made of straw trapsing aroubd the room on fire that we will not be able to do so properly. All of me wants to prove to you that that thing is not true. I dont know how to go about doing that. You've made up your mind, and it goes from there. I assure you it is not the truth. My explanation was accurate, and honest. I truly have no more reason to lie to you. It isnt as if we're going to get back together if you realize I'm telling the truth about that thing. I know it won't change anything. I dont even know why I need you to know. I just do. ((I WILL NOT REPLY TO EMAILS ABOUT THIS, THE PERSON IT IS FOR HAS MY NUMBER AND CAN TEXT ME DIRECTLY IF SHE WISHES))