I Quit My Job During an Isolated Schizophrenic Episode

San Leandro CA

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I am sort of at a loss which is why I am posting here on Craigslist. I never experienced a schizophrenic episode until I was 40 and since then it has been a hand full of times. Usually when my life wasn't going so well and I was worried about money or my place to live. The last time before this time I experienced a schizophrenic episode was in 2017. I thought I was golden and had nothing to worry about. I had gotten myself a job as a Project Manager in Construction and everything was going well, then boom. It hit. I couldn't focus on anything because I was hearing some pretty bad voices. Voices that made it impossible to work. I quit my job because of this and now, post-episode I am looking for work again and my confidence is shaken. My last boss won't even speak to me even though we were fairly close and I considered him my mentor. I find myself reverting back to cigarettes and coffee which I don't want to do but it's a bit of a depression thing. I also got in a car accident in April, (not my fault but it was a total loss) so now I am without a car as well. Having a car is paramount to being a Project Manager. I keep thinking I can rent one in the interim of getting one should I get another job as a Project Manager. That is what I am passionate about. Project Management in Construction, though I am pretty green, I still give it my all and never leave things sitting. I'm reaching out because I know there must be successful people out there that can empathize with what I am dealing with or have dealt with. I need positive people in my life. I need to surround myself with positive people and positive activities. Being positive in the mind is the first step I think to getting that job that we want. Like I said, right now my confidence is shaken. I know I can do the job, but it's being given the opportunity that is the biggest factor.