I have no right ….

Ben Lomond CA

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… to miss you. I’d heard you were changing course in your life and I was happy for you … but knew it meant you’d be suddenly gone from my life … and I panicked a little bit … I was so mean to you, then. In trying to protect myself from the day you’d disappear. I tried to help you by pushing you away and convincing myself I didn’t care about anything. There was a moment … ah, but that’s the thing, see. There never was a “might have been.” Only a moment where I saw a possibility that didn’t exist. Couldn’t exist. I miss the days before I realized that. It’s for the best, I know. We’re on different planets, you and I.