TxR 7/4 Most important person I didn't meet, I pray...

San Rafael CA

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What is a moment? What are 3? When: TxR; July 4th Stage Left (shade of the palm trees) 1. I arrived and wanted to be in my favorite spot- you were there, too, but I wasn't sure if you were there alone, and as the show started and went on, I didn't ask.. distracted by messaging someone else about a first date on my phone. 2. Later in the show, you danced/spun right in front of me for a minute.. beautifully. Made my heart yearn, made me smile, big time. You're beautiful. But, you were sorta hanging out with someone else, so I was again.. not sure. And, I wasn't trying to force anything (practicing sitting with what is..). 3. As I was driving out of the parking lot, I pulled to the side to set my map and music; you walked by and I looked up just as you did. You turned away and, in that moment, a car pulled a u-turn directly in front of me and blocked my way for a few seconds... I reacted more to the car in front of me as a "what are you doing?" instead of seeing it as a sign to stop, get out, and talk with you. When I realized it all later that evening.. it was an epiphany and the hardest heart-sinking feeling I've ever felt. Life rarely gives second chances.. I know. I'm sitting with this nauseating feeling of regret for a week and a half. Were we meant to meet or was I just meant to learn the lesson of a moment?