Advice

Missoula MT

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This is some advice for those who post about heartache, lost loves etc. PURGE them. Purge them from your mind and move on. When I say purge, I don’t meant to hate them and be angry about it. I mean to clean away everything. Wipe it away. And I know, easier said than done, right? I know that too, all too well. When my best friend, whom I trusted the most and loved like family suddenly left, I felt so empty. So crushingly empty. It was a bad time in other areas of my life, but honestly it always is when these things happen. I was so beside myself with genuine grief, anger and indignation. “After all I did this is what I get?” “How could she do this to me?” And the rest. Man, it sucked. I dwelt on it for a long time; I’d never been through this before you know? For a very long time I tortured myself with the whys, the how’s, that what I could have dones. And that hurt too. Then, after months of this I decided I had to purge her. It was a long process- 2 years- and I can tell you it was the most painful thing I have ever done. I methodically went through each memory and cast it into the fire. The unanswered questions, the complex emotions, the memories both bad and good. And the little memories, the moments I’d remember and smile fondly because they felt sooo good. And worst of all, hope. I got rid of the hope that one day I’d see her phone number with a text message, a call, anything. Even though I knew a long time ago I’d never get that, I still had a sliver of hope. That was the worst. I felt so empty for a while, not sad. Just.. empty. But then I didn’t think about it. I didn’t notice at first, but one day it dawned on me. It was all gone. And it felt good! Everything looked up, I stopped feeling down, stopped beating myself up, stopped wondering. Man, that was the best day I’ve had in so long. And it was worth it! So worth it. Anyways, that’s my advice to some of you here. I hope it helps.