How do I let her know?

Oregon City OR

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I hope that someday you will realize you created this entire mess in your head. Maybe then you’ll get serious about changing your BPD behaviors so that you don’t continually find yourself here. I mean really, how many more times are you going to put yourself, your family, and those you love through this? It’s far more than anyone should ever have to endure, and enough to completely break a lot of folks. And even though my heart is strong, it proved to be no match for the wrath of your wounded inner child. I gave you all I had to give, and then gave you some more. Not because I had anything left to give mind you, but because you demanded it. The level of selfishness you possess is nearly indescribable. Literally anything that occurs must be about you in some way. I couldn’t even mourn the death of my friend without it somehow being about you and how you feel. Same thing when my kid had cancer, when my dog died, when my grandma died, etc... Suffice to say there’s a pattern, and it’s very “you shaped.” You took my reactions to your delusional abusive treatment of me and called that abuse when indeed it was not. It was my reactions to being falsely accused of things I’ve never done, reactions to you hitting me, screaming at me, and generally being a not so nice person. You would even blame your behavior on my reactions to your behavior. On what planet does that make sense? I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again- my reactions to you acting out of your issues CANNOT BE THE REASON you have those issues in the first place. It’s literally not possible. You had your issues long before we ever met. Haven’t you ever noticed that all of your relationships end the same way, and for the same reasons? So I’m going to ask you again- How much longer are you going to keep doing the same thing? Nobody else ever needs to know what the current you is like. Time to step up, do things differently, and actually work at healing from your BPD. It’s too late to save what we had, but I still feel in my heart that you can change. I certainly hope that you do because you could be such an amazing woman to someone if you did. Good luck to you in your life. I know it means nothing to you, but I will always love you. Goodbye.