Alaina please read

Lewisville TX

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I was a fool to act so belligerent towards you. Sure, you are a tough cookie but that is no means for me to be so harsh towards you. I was wrong to treat you so disrespectfully and degrading you in the ways that I did. I'm sorry for hurting you. When things started ripping at the seam all I could do and have done since is blame you when I should have been reflecting more in depth of myself and where I could do better. I've been stuck in this hazy tunnel vision of anger and rage which consumed my soul for years now. I hate what I've become. I hate that I treated you worse than I would ever treat another person which completely conflicts with how I always say that I love you. When you love someone you don't try and break them down you try and build them up. I failed you over and over again and I'm sorry. If you could find it in your heart to forgive me that would make me so happy. Do I deserve that? Heck no. And even if you forgave me, that doesn't mean you would want to be friends again. I guess I just think that maybe you might want to? We both saw something in each other and I know there is so much more to us than meets the eye. There is so much more than the bad blood between us and I just want you to know that I feel like such a cowardly fool for the ways I spoke to you and made you feel. I'm so sorry for being the biggest jerk and so much worse words that could describe who I've been to you.