I wish I were someone else

Oklahoma City OK

Description

So, first I'm a guy, I'm not looking for anyone to reply, I just need to vent. I fell hard for someone who used me then threw me away. Since that point and everything that has happened I'm lost and I don't want to be me anymore. Honestly, I don't want to exist, I wish my father had gotten his way and I had been aborted. I'm exhausted with trying when I'm only worth anyone's time if they need something. Idk how much more of this depression I can handle and I don't want to ever feel again. I give up, not just on myself but at hoping I'm worth being loved by another.