Chips

Corvallis OR

Description

I was thinking about my life tonight. Trying to fathom the many tragedies. Which ones were my karma, which were others, and why I suffered for them. It took 18 years to finally receive justification for one very important to me. It made all the lesser instances disappear with it. Relief. Finally. Except you. Was that my karma or yours? I wish I knew. You closed that door on me and I never got the answers I was looking for. I should have died 3 times now. Somehow I skirted death. I was trying to start new there but didn’t belong and now being here again feels wrong. It’s as if I’m not supposed to be here. When I met you, it felt right being around you. Now I’m just tired of being let down. Let down by strangers and family. I believed in you and only wanted to see you happier. But my heroes never are that. They’re just people and if I haven’t cut them off, they’re all gone now anyway. I needed someone to believe in aside from this ghost in the mirror. Maybe I am not asking the right questions. Ember