Feeling Low

San Marcos TX

Description

I'm always the strong one, always the one who makes others feel they can conquer anything. Lately, I'm breaking in a bad way, but feel I have no one to back me up because "oh, she's tough, she can handle this". But I Can't Anymore I've never in my life had suicidal thoughts. Until now. But I'm the tough one. I'll be ok. Right? When I'm down, no one takes it seriously, so I smile. I keep working, serving them their liquid antidepressants. I trudge through the day, an unlicensed psychologist. Then I go home. Not in silence. My head is too loud. I toss. I turn. I get up the next day and do it all again with a dose of exhaustion. Why? Please give me a reason why. I can no longer find one.