You're killing me...

Portland OR

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How can you say you love me when everything you do proves otherwise? How come I can't let go of you though i know i need to desperately? Why do you come back when you disconnected emotionally and mentally so long ago? After the daily abuse why the hell do i do anything, everything for you? Why won't you just stay away from me like Ive asked do many times of you because Im to weak to not break down and get ahold of you? Why do you hate me so much that you have to destroy my heart day after day? Why do i hate myself a bit more every time I get ahold of you and why do i go straight into self destruct mode whenever you come around? Why can't you just love me the way you did before I met the real you? Why can't i just die already and end this suffering that's slowly killing me from the inside out.... Your literally killing me and you don't even care