Digging that hole

Cheshire Ave near Lincoln St, Eugene OR

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Dear friend: I saw your post earlier. This is the first time I have ever responded to a post on craigslist. You probably won't see this either. I would have responded directly, but your post disappeared rather quickly. Digging that hole is exhausting, my friend. Please know that you are allowed to put down that shovel at any time. The hardest part is letting go. Honestly. You said you set someone free? Now, have the same compassion for yourself. The hardest part is jumping off that train you greased the tacks for, which is taking you deeper into the dark tunnel of self-sabotage, resentment, and egocentrically driven self-pity. leading to a new low you thought you'd never know. I know. I've been there. It takes courage and humility to take that leap into the unknown. It takes faith...in yourself. You are worthy of love, but until you discover that for yourself, you will be trapped in this awful cycle. You may just be surprised to find that, that person, or people, you've hurt, upon seeing that your shovel is cast aside, seeing you've jumped off that train, that they too, will throw down their shield and weapons. They, no doubt are exhausted as well. Every day is a few day to start again. it sounds cliche, but it's true. Take it day by day, my friend. You can't control anyone but yourself. Choose to forgive yourself. Choose the light of the morning sun. Choose to take care of your body, for it has the ability to heal old wounds if you choose. Your power is in this moment, not in the past. Your future is full of possibilities. BELIEVE you are worthy. YOU ARE WORTHY!!! "Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light". -B. Brown