Met you at the "E.C." on my birthday 14yrs ago

Louisville KY

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Since the first time we really talked, i was in love. i know you remember that feeling when we locked eyes, on thay dancce floor. i felt it too. from that day on we were inseparable, we wanted to be together all the time amd it was amazing, for so many years. i knew i had found my soul mate. And you told me the same. ive loved you so deeply since then. Our wedding was amazing, thanks to you. you were, and still are the most beautiful woman i know, and in that dress you wore. Well, i will never forget the way you looked.i was so in shock of how beautiful you were, that i completely didmt realize you were gonna need help stepping down the rocks to me. i was just so grateful that god had put me in a path that had brought me to such a beautiful and perfect woman. and no matter what i wouldnt trade a day we were together, for anything else in the world. we went thru alot, way too much. and the perfect life we were building eventually fell apart. i meed you to know that there were never a day that had you said you needed me that i wouldn't have been there. i didmt mess around. when you told me i needed to find someone and you would be happy for me, i tried. i couldnt and then you wanted me back, atleast for the night, i guess to say goodbye. because before i kknew it, you were gone, with her too. amd you knew wjat you were doing when i told you o loved you, kidsed you, and watched you drove off for the last time. its been a year and you still womt talk to me. i cant understand why, and what your doing letting them control you so much. i know sweetheart, that this isnt you, not really. you know im not he person you've seemed to portray me as. i dont get it. i never hurt you, nor did i ever say or try to. i loved you with all my heart and soul. i was thrre throughh so nuch, even when i shouldnt have been. stuck there through hings that were not my problem, amd pay debts you did after. and all i want and have ever wanted was to see you smile and tell me your ok. you cant imagine what i wemt through either. you have no idea what its been loke and to try and move on has just been a uphill battle i cant seem to win. with no answers and the hell and hatrasmment ive have had on a daily basis keeps me from being able. not to mention, all i can seem to keep me headong in the right direction is her, and how i can make her life better. but you keep me from doing that too. i understand i have to let go of what we had amd that its over amd will never be fixed. i get that babe. but please, stop twisting the knife. i did ylove you. so much more than u must have thought. i truley did. and i do appreciate everything you did for me, since that day you made me realize i had finally found the one who makes me whole. i have to let go of our past, its killing me inside more each day. all of the e things i saved from our marriage, ive got to get rid of. i see the memepries everyday and i cant do it anymore. i miss my best ffriend. i dont know if youll ever see this. im going to put all of that stuff into a storage unit or somthing. if you want anything,. you can have it. im letting go completely, but ill always remember, and thank ggod for giving us a happy start. i love you and always have. have a good life and maybe smile when you see me so i know your ok... love always, hubby