Cant be around you

San Francisco CA

Description

I think about you everyday. I deserved better. I deserved a best friend. I deserved love. I deserved more hugs. I deserved a few words that were never spoken. It was hard to see you not feel the same and worse was your dismissing my feelings and confusion. You are perfect to me and that means i know you have flaws but i believe in you to continue forward on this journey in a magnificent way. I have no doubt about it. The easiest way for me to stop feeling “not good enough” everytime i was around you was to stop seeing you and cut you out. And it worked for the most part! Im writing this because i am not very bright and think theres a small chance that you care what i think. I just want you to know i was/am just doing the best I can for myself. I feel tied to you in some way and it doesnt make any sense. I will always love you, in this strange, not able to be around you, way.