im sorry i ran away like a coward i miss you all

Bellingham WA

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i hate myself more every passing day, everyday i dont change and disappear a bit more. from when i wake up to when i go to sleep i have a pit of sickness in my stomach thinking of how i left all my friends. i am sorry for who i hurt and confused, and most of all who i tricked into thinking i was someone better than i am. i forgot who i was while i was there, but i will always be a pyscho creep monster underneath. i know i can never see or talk to any of you again, and i remind myself everyone is enjoying life more than they would if i was still there. i wont forget who i am again, i will stay away from all of you and everyone else for that matter. as much as i miss you all i know i am toxic. i know i am sick. i know its too far gone and ill never be worth having to deal with. i wish so much i was someone else, that i didnt see this disgusting face in the mirror, that i was the character i tried to play up there. i want the best for you all, please have happy lives and enjoy things and be safe.