JL <3 JS

Missoula MT

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I think about you and how we used to laugh and love and kiss and all the nights getting to know each other in hotel rooms where you’d drive hours to spend the weekend with me. The times we went camping and took road trips, visited your family and friends, took our bikes to cruise around. I had so much fun with you. I always felt safe. You could take care of anything even patching 14 holes in a tire. And you’d tell me I was going to be your wife. You said it a few times. You said ‘youre going to marry me’. I would marry you in a heartbeat. I listen to all the songs that meant something to you and to us and i put them on a playlist and listen to them and cry, I am struggling to let you go. Why did I not realize the man i had when you were here? I only want to love you and take care of you and have you take care of me. I want you to be in charge and I just want to be your girl. I want to sit on the bench seat right next to you and drive for hours staring over at you. I miss your smell. I miss sleeping on your chest. I miss everything. I can’t have things the way they were and i cant have you and its real. Ive always thought we would end up together. I had to write it out and tell myself and you that I am letting you go. I deleted every picture, all the songs and the playlist. I closed my social media so i am not tempted to check on you. Im letting you go. I never had what it takes. I tried my hardest.