Lost My Companion

Superior near 5th, Antigo WI

Description

Hi. This may sound strange to some, but yesterday someone ran my dog over and killed him. He was my companion dog. I live alone, and had him with me wherever I went. I'm a Vet, with PTSD. I seen a lot in my life and have always been strong. Always been able to take care of myself. But what happened yesterday has put me back into a very "scary" place for me. I'm trying to manage but all my self worth is gone. I promised my dog I would protect him, and care for him. He was only 1 1/2 old. And I let him get killed. Now being alone, all I do is think of him and feel terrible. Writing this is very hard for me. I'm old, 64 and getting to the end of life. I have always tried to help others, and did. This is the first time in my life when I really think...I.... am the one who needs help. I really would like someone tho talk to. I really don't care where you are, I just would like someone who can be there when I need to "not be alone". I'm sorry if this offends anyone, but it is MY WAY of venting, I guess. I'm not asking for money or anything, really. Just someone nice, and won't mind a sad older man who is LOST now without my dog. I've never been lost, emotionally. And it's really hurting me. I'm scared. After the Army, (Vietnam), both my parents died. I was 22. So re-enlisted in the Marines. So I have seen things most shouldn't. It never really bothered me. But now, things are harder for me to be lone. If you think you may be someone that cares enough to help, PLEASE help me.