Green river college bus stop 6 years ago, Angelica

Auburn WA

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November 2014, I first saw you at the bus stop at Green River College. You were the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. You were very slim and a little short, with dark hair. You wore a lot of purple and I think you were Russian or Ukrainian. I think I saw the name Angelica on your phone case. I noticed you stand unusually close to me while we were waiting in a crowd for the bus to come. This happened at least twice. Then I caught you looking at me and vice versa, but we would both look away whenever there was a chance at eye contact. For weeks, we played this game. Then, you found me sitting alone on a bench for the bus. You lingered very close, and I thought of saying something, but I was too shy. I was hoping you would sit next to me, but you didn't. I don't have very good self-esteem, so I just couldn't believe that somebody as pretty as you would show even the smallest bit of interest in me. I left when the bus arrived, and you didn't board. I think you were upset, and I don't think I ever saw you after that. I cried and cried the whole way home, having deeply regretted not reaching out to you. I'm sorry, Angelica, if that is your name. I was a fool and I wish I had invited you to sit next to me that day. I think about you often. I know you probably have a boyfriend by now, or you forgot about me, but if you're still out there, I hope to meet you someday.