I gave it one last try but now I give up

Hampden ME

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Last night I was trying to see if anything changed. I really hoped that it had but it didn't. Without smoke you don't hang out with me at all. We can only make small talk like strangers. Just know that I gave it everything I could. Unfortunately I will never be good enough in your eyes. I'm going to stay distant and not mention it at all. If you happen to ask I will just tell you I'm fine. Then hopefully I will lose these feelings and it will be a loss for you. Because without these feelings I will only see you for your actions. I'm sure you won't see this but I needed to say it.