i think of you every goddamn day

Portland OR

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your name is still my favorite word. every song reminds me of you, the moon reminds me of your eyes, the birds' songs remind me of your voice. you infiltrate my dreams and its killing me. i hope you think of me every time you use the ashtray i got for you. when you think of red dead redemption, i hope you think of me, but maybe you don't. every blue subaru i imagine is you. i hold my breath whenever i drive north on cesar chavez because i pray i'll catch a glimpse of you. if you ever find my navy blue scrunchie I lost in your apartment, would you please give it back to me? unrequited feelings suck. i hope in this way i can move on. i send this out into the universe in order that i can recall the energy i generously spent on you back to me.