Careless J me too

Escondido CA

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I dont know why i like to hurt myself but im pretty good shootin myself in the foot. I wish you knew this. The one person i want to have a real talk with doesnt seem to care. I can see that were not going anywhere but i thought i deserved an explanation. You hurt me everyday but youre still all i think of. I just want the best for you and it kills me to think that i still wanna make sure youre okay when im still alone in the cold. It really seems like i was just a game for you to come and go as you please. Its so horrible waiting for the day that i realize you really dont care about me. All the things i said i was just trying to get a rise from you so you would admit that i actually mean something. I really doubt thats the case though. Im really trying to better myself but i cant help but hope youll turn up one day and we can catch up but it seems pretty clear im not worth the time. I just wanted a little closure. I hope you read this because you really left me feeling so empty. Im worth something and if you cant see that then keep goin your own way. I deserve more. One day ill learn. Even after all the pain youve put me through ive been raised to finish what i start. So ill be waiting ready to tie up loose ends if its something that bothers you. It was nice and sweet to have you on my arm but once again i was just holding on waiting for the trainwreck. It was cold the way you treated me when i was just trying to check on you. I really dont know why i keep wasting my time when this takes so much out of me. I still care even if you dont. How my life always goes. You know where to find me. I want to make things right for my well being. Im not the type to make a mess and leave it for the next person. So if you need answers i know whats going on. I dont expect you to dwell but its what i do best. Im sure we wont be friends but were still people. Whether you come back or not i wish you the best.