Longing for your touch and wondering if you think of me

Ballston Spa NY

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Do you still wear your beanies and fitteds with your emo eyes and wonder about me? Do you miss me the way I miss you..? 💭 I'm emotional when I think of you and I start crying for some reason... Do you still get up early to go to work everyday? Since I've left your area, I still think of you, laugh about you, and miss you. I wish you hugged me before I left to give me closure and peace within myself. That wouldn't have been asking for a lot. I know everything seemed crazy and a lot has happened, but I know you can find it in yourself to understand somethings I couldn't help when I was helpless in so many ways. I longed a lot for you to come visit me, hug me, caress me, and kind of just talk to me for me to feel better, even as a friend. I understand you are not obligated to me in any way, but I still always feel this chemistry between us that I won't deny or I'm completely delusional. You WOW me in so many ways and I wish I was allowed to express that to you sooner and could've avoided certain things transpiring that occurred. You mean a lot to me to this day whether you know it or not. I know I'm not perfect and I long for your love... You will always have mine without a doubt. 🖤 Although I endured a lot of embarrassment, pain and traumas I still see to it to seek a therapist to keep my sanity. My therapist says to think of happy thoughts, or rather that's my therapy for myself, and I don't have many happy thoughts but I think of you and some of your behaviors and I start to laugh bc you're a funny guy. That brings me some joy and laughter... I kept something of yours, so I bought you a beanie, like the ones you love to wear but a different color and logo, a shot glass, and a pair of boxers that I was never able to deliver to you with all the confusion. I figured if you were able to get it, you would've been able to finish something we shared.. With secrecies in question, I never got to give it to you myself... But please know that I loved you.....💋 ... 12118