im hurting so much

Bozeman MT

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my ex is abusing me. mentally and emotionally. I honestly dont know if i can take the heartache again or much longer. I let her in and then shes good for a couple weeks and then flips on me. I do not know what to do, sometimes I wanna just crawl under a rock, and some days I wanna just have an outburst and tell her to fuck off. Somedays I just want to move out of this place. its pretty sad...and i wish that someone would listen to me, or simply ask how my day is going. Just show me a little bit of love. I dont know why she cant see how much pain it puts me in. she punishes me frequently...even if i speak up, or share my opinion its shit on. Then she will exhile me for weeks on end. Now she is post surgery, she is on a tear and the hole process is destroying my soul. Why can you both love eachother SO much, and the turn and treat someone with total disregard for my mental health?