It's been a year now

Kent WA

Description

Our bond was brief and frayed so quickly. It was almost entirely my fault. I've never fucked up so badly. I hurt like you wouldn't imagine. It almost killed me, seriously. I've learned my lesson. I'm grateful to be alive. I'd love another chance with you but I don't think it will come. I wish I was wrong about that. I'm fulfilling my words and have moved on but I still find myself drifting back in the past, to you. I would try again with you if fate bestowed such favor upon me. You were short. Black hair, glasses. The loveliest thing. I didn't deserve you as I was then. I've gotten better and have healed mostly, though the scars show. You had scars on your forearms. I loved you deeply. I was horrible at showing it. I was a monster. I've transmogrified somewhat and am not the same beast. If you at all ever consider me please reach out. I'm not holding my breath for you, and have plenty of friends to talk to when the loneliness comes over me, but I still think about you. Deeply. I wish I could try again. That's what is both painful and beautiful about Life, the diaphanous nature of it. I wish I had you back.