El Fin

Albuquerque NM

Description

Wowza! My posts stirred a lot of emotion from a lot of people who thought or wished these were for them, opened up about heartbreak, sought their own closure through this, unloaded, or experienced similar. Some hoped anyone would write to them the same way. Multiple dipped off thinking these were for them and I was trying to fool them (I'm sorry for that! They really weren't!). I didn't expect to find closure in the ways I did--both through others, and in myself. I found kind words through strangers and friends alike. I feel so much less alone, strangely. A couple got sick of hearing it very publicly. For (possibly less than anonymous) Mr. Grumpy Pants and Following “Female”--you were outlier/s. However, I GOT sick of it too. Though you subjected yourself to my simping, I'm still sorry for it. It was not 1-2 weeks but exactly 1 month from the first. I gave myself that long to be a straight mess. After everything, one response from a stranger was the final thing. I'm done. I've finally said enough for a lifetime. "It is reasonable for you to want to remain friends As it is reasonable for me to want to be left alone. Being friends would require an emotional stamina for me that I don’t feel I’m capable of. It’s not my intention to be cruel or harbor resentment for this situation, yes I am tender but I must at the same respect my emotional dignity, I have to maintain a balance throughout this storm. I crave closure but also have a sense of heartbreaks unforgiving reality. Grief is worthless, it’s something I cannot afford to invest in at this time. PS. I am very familiar with this scenario, I am not the one your post is directed to, but this would be my genuine reply, in fact it does give me a degree of closure towards my own heartbreak."