A recording

Minneapolis MN

Description

M. I heard years ago that I was recorded. I question why and the motives behind it of those who did it. Betrayal is the worse thing that can be done to me and it stems from jealousy so I cut ties with them after the super bowl. If you could have seen my face when I said those things, you'd known I was not serious at all. It was the denial stage,, not a judgement stage. I couldn't fight what I was feeling for you. Fact I was grinning the whole time. What you hear is the ramblings of a fool who was already falling for you and it was happening so fast and easily, I tried to talk myself out of it or at least slow down, it didn't work. But the conversations that took place about you was to find some lame excuse to come back, see you. Speaking of gym conversations, here's a fun fact that I garentee only him and I know to this day. Who do you think was the person who talked him into asking.. we had many days on that subject. From our renfest day back, your past to me was completely irrelevant! I only want grow and make memories with you. The second group renfest I was going to tell you how I fell about you but we both know how that went. I tried to act like the perfect gentleman around you because you were very important to me and I didn't want to mess anything up. Only reason I went home that night instead of staying, I didn't trust myself with you because I wanted so desperately to stay. When the conversations in the gym started going dark I at first tried to swing it back the other way but it didn't work and ended up not talking about you at all. He's the one that told me you two hangout downtown and you two were holding hands. YES! it struck a nerve. I asked him if he should be telling me this. All I could think was WTH are you telling me This? They sought out and destroyed the one thing I'd searched for my whole life and I had to endure sitting back, helplessly watching rip away from me. I've never been so devastated and felt so helpless. M