I'm so lonely it hurts

New York City NY

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28 year old guy here and I've got no one I can talk to. I dont have any close friends, nobody to vent to. I do everything by myself. Eating, watching TV, going outside, playing games etc. I can't enjoy it anymore now. I've just been alone near 24/7 for a few years now. I try and go out, but I am so awkward, it's hard for me to connect with anyone for more than a few minutes. Finding a friend, let alone a date, is so difficult for me. I am worried that I will wake up feeling sadder than usual because I will spend my birthday alone. Whenever I try to connect with people I feel like they do not really want to talk to me and I am writing this so I don't break down crying. I just want a friend or at least someone to hang around. I know this post may not get any responses, just literally had to get it off my chest. It physically feels like my chest is crushing just thinking about it. It hurts.