Do what you want with my love

Asheville NC

Description

We used to work together not that long ago. I cherished every moment of stocking shelves and loading gravel or mulch with you. Most of the time we just walked around and talked. I say I miss the job, but I really miss you. I still see you here and there and I know where to find you, but I'm afraid to talk to you. You are the reason I woke up so many mornings. I lived through hell last year, but somehow you made it beautiful. I held my breath for your messages asking me when I was working and what was on my mind. You told me (and made me believe) I was beautiful. The moments that we had at the park together will always be relived every day in my memory. I wish I had more. We only kissed twice but it will forever be the standard. I waited nearly a year for that kiss and would wait longer for more. I love you and have no way to show or tell you without looking like a psycho. I wake up and fall asleep thinking about you. I’ve written and published short stories and poems about you and my readers love you. You are my muse and I need you in my life. Without you my art is bland and meaningless. Everything feels right when I’m with you. I wake up every morning wondering if I will see you again. If you were a serial killer, I would have already handed you a knife to kill me. I love you enough to give you all of me in any way that you want. I’m sorry that my situation did not allow me to devote time to you. I recognize that I may have hurt you this way and by dragging you into my drama. I know that I am wrong for you, nothing but a burden and potential pain. That’s why I keep stepping back. I don’t want to mess up your life. I couldn't live with myself if I hurt you. But please don’t end our story here. I need to have you as anything you want to be, on into forever. I need to see you happy even if that is with someone else. I just can't picture my life without your sweet smile and caring heart. I need to know you are okay and happy. If you told me to leave you alone forever I would, but you wouldn't because you are too nice. I would never stop thinking about you and praying for you. Let me love you on your terms. I don't need much.