Anyone ever wonder if they matter to someone?

Portland OR

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I am laying her by myself again. another restless night wondering if I even matter. I have a great job,a nice place to live, a man I have been in a ltr with for over 2 years. I have some family I have so called friends yet sometimes I wonder if i even matter. Any one ever feel like that? I hate feeling like this. I am truly blessed and thankful for everything I have but i have worked my ass off to get to where I am in life! Nothing has ever been handed to me. I am such a giver and i feel like everyone takes from me but know one ever gives to me. Waking up to a nice cooked breakfast for once or how about doing something nice for me with out wanting anything in return. I read these missed connections sometimes in hopes that just maybe there is someone out there who wrote a post about me. Someone who seen me in real life who wants to make me happy and make me smile just because they can. The thing is givers never seem to find other givers. All we ever find is takers and it's mentally and physically draining. family, long-term relationships,friend ships,coworkers, bosses. Everyone in our life. I can only hope that one day I can feel appreciated for all I give to others. Now don't get me wrong.givers don't give expecting to get back we do it because we care and want to make people happy we have big hearts but it would be nice for just once if I met a giver who wanted to make me smile just because. I'm sure this will get deleted but if only one person reads this I hope you do something nice for the person in your life that is always the constant giver because we need to know we matter.