My secret

Liberty Lake WA

Description

I fought for so long to be ok with accepting that what we had is better off floating in the wind you made it known that what is done is done so I try to move on but even after all this time I still think that maybe there could be hope to mend what was broken. I have came along way from the boy I was and the long road through a special kind of hell made me understand so much about myself that even on the hardest days I'm content with knowing things will somehow work out. I am here for you and as much as I want to let you know how much you mean to me I just hope my actions will show what my mouth wants to say. It bugs me not being able to see you and tell you how much you mean to me I just think it would push you away and its nothing I havent already told you. After all this time I wouldnt think I would write on here again but here I am typing everything on my mind about you.. I love you because your beautiful not just looks but because you have a huge heart and even when your world is crashing down around you somehow you find the strength to smile and help others.. I love you because I know the person you are on the inside and I know who you have been is not inline with what's in your heart and soul.. I am attracted to your feisty attitude and how you capture the spotlight where ever you are and you know your worth.. I love your smile and how your nose wrinkles when you laugh and I miss the times we sat outside in the car just to listen to music and be together. I miss how you would go so far out of your way to make sure you were there for me I miss the look in your eyes when I said something stupid I miss how you were so dedicated to your responsibilities and you make family priority. I miss how you tried so hard to calm me down and show me I'm loved... I never felt like I was the man you needed and it was my insecurities of being a loser and I was depressed with the person I was and I pushed you away even when you begged to have me stop I continued to walk away and I live with that with no way to undo the past.. Ive learned alot though and continue to be happy with who I am even if I can only love you from a distance I will never give up on you and I hope you find what ypur looking for!