I should’ve been completely honest upfront

Chanhassen MN

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It was my way of feeling in control I guess. The last time we were together, I threw a remote in your direction, and made your mouth bleed. Sometimes I still convince myself that it was just an accident. That I wasn’t one of those men. But it wasn’t the first. I knew you were fighting back tears from the pain and the rage you felt, and I mocked you for it. Always doubling down, never taking responsibility. I was a monster, and I still don’t know why. You were right about me: I was “a piece of shit, wallowing in my own self-pity at your expense.” Therapy has helped me come to terms with my behavior, and what it cost me. If you still read these, I can tell you that nothing was your fault, and how deeply sorry I am for the pain I caused you. You didn’t “provoke” me into hurting you, and you weren’t too much or too little of anything, despite the thoughts that I know plagued you deep down. You simply had your compass damaged early on. Despite obvious behavior to the contrary, I miss you everyday, T. Brandon